My Life is Incomplete at 25
pink hair:) -I love sex -Why doesn't he love me -What is God -Why doesn't He love me -I hate sex -I am so lonely -I dyed my hair pink -I graduated -I didn't apply for jobs -I went to San Diego -I stayed at a job that I hate -I gave myself a bob -I started taking an anti-psychotic -I went on a cruise -I slept with two guys on New Years -I hate sex again -I started student loan repayment -I finally applied for a job -I had one interview -I told my landlord I am moving out by Ap
23 hours ago3 min read
I've Been Sleeping With the Lights On Again
This is Birdy from the Hirono Shelter Series. “It’ll all work out. It’s only politics! and what has that got to do with us?” I turn the lights off at first. I lay there enveloped by darkness. At first, I think I can’t fall asleep because it is too quiet. I turn on the fan. Minutes pass. Maybe it is still too quiet. I open my laptop and put on a background show. Ten minutes later, I turn the light on to find some socks, because maybe my feet are cold. I leave the light on by a
2 days ago5 min read
A Cow Worth Buying
this is me at my desk, i know, v cool. Sometimes, it is easier to write than to speak. Recently, I have been going on dates with someone new. I like him. He is sweet, intelligent, and attractive. He is funny and has interests that make him cool, or that I also share. Things seem to be going well. He takes me on real dates and opens my doors when I let him. Yet, our politics don't align. Nor does our sense of religion. He seems kind, but occasionally, he says thoughtless thing
Feb 14 min read
An Ode to Snow
the only “snow” i have seen this year. the leaves cling, withered, to the tree. they are heavy and tired, despite weighing next-to-nothing. you see, the snow hasn’t come to help them let go. leaves are nervous things. they quake and shiver in the wind. these are not god’s bravest creations. leaves need the snow - dancing and pointy - to convince them that they did enough. their tree will live on without them. the arthropods need shelter from the mountain. chickadees and red-
Jan 272 min read
The Five Best Books l Read in 2025
(these books are excellent) This past year, I read a fair amount. Between finishing my English degree and being able to read for fun again, I have some excellent contenders for the five best books of my year. In alphabetical order, I present my top five books of the year. Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu (1872) Life on Mars by Tracy K. Smith (2011) Luster by Raven Leilani (2020) Tender is the Flesh by Agustina Bazterrica (2017) The Passion by Jeanette Winterson (1987) Honorab
Dec 28, 20253 min read
On Being Human
Utah really is so beautiful. Hello my friends. I am finally back after the grand mouse fiasco that consumed my life for a couple of weeks. I feel clean and safe in my home, but now I have a cold. One of the most human experiences imaginable. We could measure life from cold to cold (or from non-cold to non-cold, although that seems overly optimistic given the circumstances). My nose is stuffy. The sockets behind my eyes ache. In fact, my entire body aches. I am hyper-aware of
Nov 28, 20253 min read
If you give a mouse hot cheetos...
Best bait ever? To begin, I am dead broke because I didn't follow my budget. That's on me. Tonight, I am calling the troops. By the troops, I mean my siblings. Being the oldest is a funny thing. I worry a lot about my siblings, how they are, how I can help them succeed, etc. Ultimately, I care a lot but I am unable to do much to change their circumstances. I'll come back to this in a bit because I started writing too soon. - Meanwhile back at the ranch, I dropped a bag of hot
Nov 17, 20254 min read
