A Cow Worth Buying
this is me at my desk, i know, v cool. Sometimes, it is easier to write than to speak. Words are measured and true. Recently, I have been going on dates with someone new. I like him. He is sweet, intelligent, and attractive. He is funny and has interests that make him cool, or that I also share. Things seem to be going well. He takes me on real dates and opens my doors when I let him. Yet, our politics don't align. Nor does our sense of religion. He seems kind, but occasional
3 days ago4 min read
An Ode to Snow
the only “snow” i have seen this year. the leaves cling, withered, to the tree. they are heavy and tired, despite weighing next-to-nothing. you see, the snow hasn’t come to help them let go. leaves are nervous things. they quake and shiver in the wind. these are not god’s bravest creations. leaves need the snow - dancing and pointy - to convince them that they did enough. their tree will live on without them. the arthropods need shelter from the mountain. chickadees and red-
Jan 272 min read
The Five Best Books l Read in 2025
(these books are excellent) This past year, I read a fair amount. Between finishing my English degree and being able to read for fun again, I have some excellent contenders for the five best books of my year. In alphabetical order, I present my top five books of the year. Carmilla by Sheridan Le Fanu (1872) Life on Mars by Tracy K. Smith (2011) Luster by Raven Leilani (2020) Tender is the Flesh by Agustina Bazterrica (2017) The Passion by Jeanette Winterson (1987) Honorab
Dec 28, 20253 min read
On Being Human
Utah really is so beautiful. Hello my friends. I am finally back after the grand mouse fiasco that consumed my life for a couple of weeks. I feel clean and safe in my home, but now I have a cold. One of the most human experiences imaginable. We could measure life from cold to cold (or from non-cold to non-cold, although that seems overly optimistic given the circumstances). My nose is stuffy. The sockets behind my eyes ache. In fact, my entire body aches. I am hyper-aware of
Nov 28, 20253 min read
If you give a mouse hot cheetos...
Best bait ever? To begin, I am dead broke because I didn't follow my budget. That's on me. Tonight, I am calling the troops. By the troops, I mean my siblings. Being the oldest is a funny thing. I worry a lot about my siblings, how they are, how I can help them succeed, etc. Ultimately, I care a lot but I am unable to do much to change their circumstances. I'll come back to this in a bit because I started writing too soon. - Meanwhile back at the ranch, I dropped a bag of hot
Nov 17, 20254 min read
Annabelle Day #5
this^ It’s 4:07am and I am afraid to fall asleep because I have so much to do. I have work at 8:00am so I will probably get up in an hour and go to the gym (since I’m up anyway). I see my friends tonight and Annabelle died five years ago. She is why I am going to see my friends tonight. Currently, I have pink curlers inside my pink bonnet (my skin is ugly so my hair has to compensate). What you need to know is: I have been sitting in the dark for hours and all I can think is,
Oct 13, 20253 min read
How to Lose A Game of Chess
Chess is cool. I need to practice, so hmu if you wanna play! Once upon a time, I wanted to be the coolest, smartest, and most dazzling person you could ever hope to meet. I wanted to be like Violet Baudelaire or Nancy Drew or Anne Shirley. I wanted to solve a mystery or at least save someone's life. I wanted the most sophisticated vocabulary and stacks of memorized poetry to recite at will. I wanted someone that was clearly my soulmate because they were only ever interested
Oct 10, 20252 min read
