"I think my soulmate was aborted"
and other crazy shit men have said to me in bed. (mostly this bed) This is getting fucking ridiculous. Sometimes, I feel like I’m not a real person. Dating apps gamify love and monetize hope. Everyone thinks they will find someone better if they just keep swiping, so they do. When things don’t go anywhere, the app is deleted out of frustration. When loneliness strikes again, the app is redownloaded. This cycle repeats endlessly. Needless to say, I am not in the “finding someo
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Late to the Party
This article was initially published on Substack, but I feel like I've been neglecting my blog lately, so it is now featured here as well. Much love to you all. (23 years old) My first drink was a shot of fireball. It tasted like cinnamon bears but a little warmer. It was one of those tiny bottles. My friends wanted to drink with me. I wanted to know if it actually felt sinful to drink. I was still going to church back then. We went to my crush’s house. There were four of us,
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Frog and Toad
sofia is 26 today ! sofia and i became friends when we were 18. i sat on her pink bed, leaning into a giant stuffed teddy bear, the very first day i met her, much to her chagrin. if i had known her any better, i would have stayed on the floor. we were not immediately friends, and even after becoming friends, we almost didn’t last. ultimately, we were saved by a rocky couple of months in mexico city. she had a parasite and i had no other friends. (thank god). after a personal
Jun 182 min read
What to Do About Normal
I have a mini bottle of Jameson in my room. Currently, I am about two shots in, but I can’t feel anything yet. Whiskey burns on the way down. It compels me to go brush my teeth until they bleed. So I do. I drink whiskey because I want to be a legitimate writer, but the screen on my laptop is too heavy, and it tilts back. Loneliness might be what kills me. Workdays spent by myself in an office, followed by solo gym sessions, eggs, sauerkraut, and avocado for dinner, and one ep
Mar 224 min read
27 Dresses, 27 Years
The most beautiful birthday girl <3 Dearest Mikaela, Happy 27th Birthday !! I am so very grateful for you. You are beautiful, smart, driven, and so cool! For those of you who don’t know Mikaela, let me tell you about her. Mikaela shows up for people. When she is needed or invited, she will be there. Royal blue has to be her best color. And Mikaela is in a different city almost every weekend of the year. This year for her birthday, she threw a "27 dresses" party where everyone
Mar 82 min read
Emma is 26
Happy Birthday Emma! Dear Emma, Happy Birthday! I can't believe that you are 26 years old. What a fun, sophisticated, sexy age to be. You are starting this next year of your life abroad . How cool is that? You'll be able to tell people that you turned 26 in Dubai while earning your law degree. It is impossible to be cooler than you. I have known Emma since 2018. Let me tell you about her. Emma has always been smart. This is apparent after spending a mere ten minutes with he
Feb 222 min read
I've Been Sleeping With the Lights On
This is Birdy from the Hirono Shelter Series. I turn the lights off at first. I lay there enveloped by darkness. At first, I think I can’t fall asleep because it is too quiet. I turn on the fan. Minutes pass. Maybe it is still too quiet. I open my laptop and put on a background show. Ten minutes later, I turn the light on to find some socks, because maybe my feet are cold. I leave the light on by accident, but I don’t want to turn it off yet. In the morning, the light is stil
Feb 155 min read
